Last Drop Blog

“Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” – Ferris Bueller

Time really does go by incredibly quick. It has been easy for me lately to just go through the motions and not reflect on what I am doing or where I have been. I copied a journal prompt thread I saw on twitter for a monthly reflection. It is important to remind yourself that you are doing well or that you are making progress in life when you sometimes struggle to remember that.

1. What were my biggest wins?
   • I traveled a lot. I was able to see some new places and things and meet some new people.
   • I stayed consistent with my fitness. I didn’t workout every day but I was able to get myself to the gym just enough to be happy and feel good.
2. What were my biggest realization’s?
   • I realize that I am getting more comfortable in my sobriety. My travel this past month was work related and I was comfortable in work party settings just having a diet coke or a water.
   • I realize that I struggle with loneliness a fair amount. I need to put more effort into making real connections and I realize the value in meaningful conversations.
3. What areas am I most satisfied? Least satisfied?
   • I am most satisfied with my career/financial situation. I understand that I am lucky to have a stable job and solid income at this point in my life and in this timeframe specifically.
   • I am least satisfied with my internal dialogue. I generally speaking have not been the happiest person lately. I simply put, would like to feel more confident in myself and that starts with how I treat myself. Can’t sweat the small stuff.
4. What am I going to do more of this month? Less of?
   • More meditation. Learning to be present and set time aside to reflect is crucial for me and my mental health. I am going to set aside 10 minutes daily to meditate.
   • Less dating apps. I recently deleted the dating app I was on. I spend too much time on them and it can be detrimental to my mental health. Ideally I would like to meet people naturally and organically and dating apps can push you away from that.
5. What am I thinking about for the upcoming month?
   • Am I thinking about my happiness and how my environment impacts that. I have been traveling quite a bit and now will have time to relax at home. I want to take some time to see how my environment is helping/hurting me.
   • Accountability. I have gone easy on myself lately and it is now time for me to be accountable and achieve my goals for the month.

Figured I would share this journal entry. It can be easy to go through each day, week, and month without much thought about you and your feelings. How did today make you feel? What did you do today to benefit you and your mental health? It doesn’t need to be black and white. It doesn’t need to be “this was good” “this was bad”. A simple observation of where you’re at is enough to slow you down.

I am incredibly lucky and grateful to have a stable career that grants me opportunities to travel. I am grateful I use those opportunities to see new places and experience new things. Do I always want to hop on a plane or drive long distances? No. But I get to do these things. Do I always want to travel solo? No. But I may not have another opportunity to travel to these places and see these things again.

I took a trip to Joshua Tree solo and while I was driving through the park I thought about the fact that I may never be back here again in my life. Sure, if someone I know wanted to go or I got an invite I could make the trip back. But, it is more likely than not that I wont be back there again in my life and that really forced me to embrace it. All the time you live through experiences that may be your last. You ever experience something for the first time and try to re-create that experience and it just wasn’t the same as the first time? This has happened to me countless times and I know its a common feeling for most people. So I want to work on being present and appreciative of my situation regardless of how I may be feeling in the moment because truly… I may never experience these things again. Its overdone and cliche but “live everyday like its your last” kinda rings true… especially when I remind myself its already October 2022…. I have lived in Austin for almost an entire year…. I turned 25…. I have been sober for 419 days…time really doesn’t slow down for anything.