Last Drop Blog

When you feel like you are doing the right things and life has got you down, keep pushing. I fully believe that in those times, when you stay true to who you are and what you believe you grow the most. Getting sober has taught me so many things about life already and I am still very early on this journey. The most important job that each and everyone of us have is to take care of ourselves. You are truly what matters most. It is not a selfish way of being. The more you consistently work to improve on this job, the more you begin to respect yourself and the others around you. The more you seek personal growth the more compassion you will have for others. You will find yourself in situations that make life feel hard, because it is. If you stay committed to the end goal of personal growth you will be putting yourself in uncomfortable situations. It doesn’t need to be getting sober for you. It may be things like challenging yourself to read more books, lose 20 pounds, switch careers, or just generally liking the person who you see in the mirror daily more often. I can guarantee you that a byproduct of seeking these challenges for yourself will lead to more compassion in your everyday life for the people around you. You will start to be more aware that everyone here is likely going through something challenging whether it is a self induced challenge for self improvement or a challenge that they unfortunately did not choose to fight. You will likely, without knowing, be a better person in your everyday life. (Stop looking for opportunities to be a better person)

This is essentially killing two birds with one stone. I think people view their relationship with others around them and their relationship with themselves as two different things. I do not believe it is in the slightest. Job 1a. is to take care of yourself. Job 1b. is to take care of the others around you that matter most. It is never job 1 and job 2.

It is not selfish to turn down an invite. This is something I struggle with from time to time especially since getting sober. I feel like I am just now getting better with the things I chose to do with my free time. What helps me first and foremost is knowing that truly no one would care if I did or did not show up to something. My good friends would know that I am likely not showing up to something because I know it would not serve me well. (and if they dont you should tell them thats the reason, they will understand). I have began to understand what socializing means to me. It has been a weird thing to uncover as it is still very new. I enjoy being social but it is no where near what “being social” likely means to a majority of people. If I have a true feeling that going out to be social would not serve me at the time, I have gotten much better at recognizing it and saying no with zero guilt. That zero guilt part wasn’t easy. It still isn’t from time to time but it is less often I find myself battling between “should I go or should I not?”. “Would I be treating myself better if I did not attend this event?” Is a great question to ask yourself. If it is an obvious yes, I would encourage you to say no AND make good use of your time. Try your best to not wallow in regret. Try to recognize that you are doing yourself a solid. Maybe a nice walk, gym sesh, homemade dinner, movie night, apartment clean etc. is exactly what you needed to get back on track and because you made that decision for yourself; you will feel a whole lot better in general. It will improve your feeling of self worth and maybe the next invite you get and accept, you will be incredibly grateful you took the time to stay in last time.

I am incredibly grateful that I have been staying consistent on this journey of self improvement. In my last blog I mentioned just generally feeling like shit and not really knowing why. I stayed consistent and didn’t steer too far off my path and I am so grateful I did. I hope that if someone is working on themselves out there and is not feeling rewarded by their work they keep pushing even if its one more day trying to achieve a goal. There is this willie nelson quote right outside my apartment “You will never find happiness until you stop looking for it”. It is important to put in the work to try and better yourself but try not to be so eager to reap the reward. It is coming when the time is right.