Last Drop Blog

I took a yoga class a week ago. I appreciate yoga and what it has done for my mindset the past several years. In shavasana, (or corpse pose) where you typically just lay flat after a 50 minutes of flowing and breathe, I thought “what if death was one long shavasana?”. I didn’t even know shavasana was called “corpse pose” when I had this thought or that the spiritual meaning of it was surrendering deeply to an energy that prepares us for the inevitable—our death. But in that moment while my body was exhausted and I eagerly laid down on the mat, shut my eyes, and exhaled I had the thought. What if this is what life after death feels like. Your body is exhausted from a long life and there is a sense of relief that it finally gets to rest. Your mind is still active and can observe the thoughts that pass. I thought about how important it would be to be content with all that you have done with your time here on this earth. If life after death was simply you and your thoughts, how would you wake up and live today. Maybe this is a mindset that some people already live with. If thoughts still pass and your mind is still capable of observing them after death, one must hope they are predominantly positive thoughts and leave you feeling happy about the memories and impact you’ve made. In my last blog post I mentioned reminding myself that everyone dies and how thinking that or saying it out loud puts a whole lot of things into perspective. I never really thought too deeply about my relationship with it until recently. Maybe it is getting older and understanding how fast time passes. I have thought a bit about my decision to get sober and if I didn’t choose to do that how different my life would be right now in this very moment. I have thought about how much work I have put into bettering myself and how that pursuit is never ending. I have thought about the balance of living presently while seeking growth for the future you. And just recently I have thought maybe just maybe at the end of it all, everything you work towards in this lifetime is to allow you to be at peace in a time not related to this existence. (Someone reading that probably is having a hard time believing I a sober and likely thinks I did DMT or some psychedelic recently) I think many people can relate in having a crisis, however big or small, from time to time where they wonder “what am I doing all of this for?”. It could be spending hours, months, years at a job that doesn’t serve you. It could be working to better yourself on a hobby that wont turn into a career. (me at the driving range trying to be as good as I once was at golf) It could be going for a daily walk. It could be anything that in the moment you dont really want to do but you kinda know in your gut you should. Maybe if you look at these things from a different perspective and do them to be at peace further down the line you will in turn be more present. Maybe this perspective will allow you to stop worrying about why you’re doing all these things. Do things today so that if you find yourself at one point in time incapable of doing them, you will be happy about doing it now.

A shoutout to the people who are actively in my life now that constantly remind me the importance of trying to be the best version of you. Surrounding yourself with others working hard on things that make them a positive person is the biggest motivating factor in my life thus far. You can surely change for the better alone but you definitely don’t have to and you truthfully shouldn’t. I am grateful for periods of isolation where I learned about myself, however I am immensely grateful for friends and relationships along the way that put self growth into perspective. Without a sense of community all good things lose value.

To quote the great Curtis Jackson “Sunny days wouldn’t feel so special, if it wasn’t for rain. Joy wouldn’t feel so good, if it wasn’t for pain. Death gotta be easy, cause life is hard”.